The Calm Within

Talk about being burnt out. Talk about needing a much needed BREAK.
I have been away from Hollywood for 2 1/2 months now and I don't miss it one bit. I miss my friends and awesome people I have met there, of course. And I do miss the weather... Ahhh...that sunny 75 degree weather! Ok, maybe I miss it a TINY bit. But is it weird that I don't miss auditioning? AT ALL? My world was my career. My days consisted of going to my auditions, or waiting for a good one to come in. Sitting in traffic, looking over my sides, dealing with my frustrations about the stereotypical role I was going for YET AGAIN, and self doubt about my ability - EVERY TIME. I loved my acting class with Howard because I finally felt like I was WORKING - even though class cost me instead of paid me. But I got so much more out of it than my actual acting jobs.
I've been back in Texas and my days couldn't be more opposite! My mornings start off with coffee with my mother, and watching American Idol on the DVR from the night before. Having lunch with friends I've known for decades. Seeing my family and friends on a daily basis, surrounded by people who love me, and not thinking about my career all the time. In fact, not thinking about it at all. And it's been SO GREAT!
I'm thinking about this upcoming move to Austin and how my Houston agent has been submitting me, trying to keep me busy - and I've been dreading any auditions she calls me for. I wonder why... Could it be that I'm really DONE? I do have an audition for a play reading on Tuesday - but I'm actually looking forward to that. Maybe because a friend is directing and another friend is the playwright. I'm more excited about working with them. :) And SO excited about getting back to the only city that really felt like home. Austin.
This new journey is exciting...

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