Lydia's Journey BEYOND Hollywood

Follow an actress's journey beyond Hollywood. The life after a successful 10 year career...

Thursday, January 31, 2013

This Stage

I've been on many stages in my life.  Small black box theater spaces, huge stages that I shared with the San Antonio Symphany, and even stages that weren't really stages.  I've even been through many stages myself - from the awkward kid who didn't know who she wanted to be, to the professional actress struggling with what to do next.  To the woman who is now a mommy.  Out of ALL those stages - I love the stage that my kids are in now the most.  :)
Ivy will be a year in a month.  And Nic will be 18 months.  And as much as I loved holding my newborns in my arms, I remember thinking, um...when does this begin to be FUN?  Yes, having (almost) two toddlers definitely has its TOUGH moments (tantrums anyone??), but watching them learn and discover things is priceless.  Hearing them "talk" to each other is surreal!  They may understand each other, but it sounds like babble to me and their dad.
Ivy slept a lot when she was a newborn, and didn't interact all that much.  Then she started to grow.  And grow.  And grow.  And everyday we notice how much more she is turning into her own person, with her own unique personality.  She's funny, and sweet, and demanding, and strong!  Whenever Nicolas tries to grab a toy from her hand, she grips it so tight!  They are quickly becoming best friends - and it's pretty amazing to witness!
Nicolas has music in his soul.  Not only will he stop whatever he is doing and start to dance when he hears it, he'll dance just for eating something he likes.  He does the happy dance for food!
He loves to run back and forth and act as if someone is chasing him.  He will sit down on anyone's lap!  He loves to be hugged.  He knows how to kick a ball already, but what I find the sweetest thing about him is how he loves stuffed animals.  He hugs them tight and bites their noses.  It's too cute.
Ivy loves to give kisses.  She started early on the french kisses, so I'm trying to keep that tongue back in her mouth, but she's giving love nonetheless!  She crinkles her nose and snorts.  She dances when she hears music.  And she is very ticklish.  I LOVE making her crack up laughing.  She has an amazing belly laugh.
These are my babies, who are quickly growing up.  I can't believe it's been a year already since I became a mom to TWO babies!  I try not to blink too much because before I know it, they will be off to college and I'll really be wondering where the time went!
Ok, back to singing along with Elmo.
La la la, la la la, Elmo's World....

Wednesday, January 23, 2013

Two Year Mark

We are coming up on two years back in Austin.  Two years happens to be the exact time I lived here last time.
It was right after graduating college.  I came to Austin because I wanted to start a professional career as an actress, but I wasn't ready to make the move to Hollywood just yet.  I accomplished a lot in those 2 short years.  I secured my first agent, used professional headshots, worked on film for the first time, and even booked lead roles in independent feature films.  In those 2 short years, I grew up a lot, as a person and an actor, and I was ready to fully go after my dream.  I knew that meant having to go back to square one, humbling myself, and working as an extra for a year and a half before booking my first speaking role on TV.
For my 10 years in LA, I've thought about moving back to Austin several times.  At every anniversary, I would reminisce about my short time in Austin and how much I loved living there, the great people I met in my short time, and the awesome experiences I had.  I would often say that Austin is where I would love to settle down and raise a family.  I remember towards the end of my 10 years there, talking to a friend of mine about how I missed Austin and I would love to move back again someday...and she finally said "Lydia!  You say that every year!  You should just do it already!"
I thought to myself..."Yes.  She's right.  I say that every year.  What's holding me back?"
I think it was the fear of leaving something I worked so hard for.  This dream that I've always had.  I made it part of my identity.  If I left - what would I do, who would I be?
I had to leave when it felt right for me.  When I was finally ready to step away and focus on something else.
It's funny how my life came full circle.  I've noticed that a few times in my life.  I remember working as an extra many times on the show Strong Medicine - and it was so surreal when I booked that show as my first job.  Arriving to set, and not going straight to the extras holding room and "checking in" - but finding an AD and being led to my dressing room.  I remember sitting in the makeup chair, enjoying every minute of this full circle experience.  I was on cloud 9.
And here I am today, back in Austin for two years now, raising my family and calling Austin home again.  It was around this time in my first stay in Austin that I was packing up and getting ready for a move to Hollywood.  How much I have changed since then!  How much of life I have experienced and lived!  I feel like I'm 80 years old!  haha  But I am grateful for everything I've been through in my life:  the good, the bad, and the ugly.  All those experiences have led me to here.  Now.
It feels good to be home.  :)

Saturday, January 19, 2013

Moving Along Nicely...

Well, now I get why people elope!  Wedding planning is my worst nightmare.  I've never been much of a party planner or decorator, and trying to come up with a "theme" much less a small guest list has all been a challenge!  Luckily, we decided on a very small beach wedding with just close friends and immediate family.  I found a photographer, caterer, and maybe even a dress.  So things are moving along nicely.  Still have 8 more months to go.  Nice...
I started jogging last week.  OMG - I can't believe how easy this used to be for me.  Now it is the hardest part of my day - and that's saying a lot if you've ever seen Nic throw a fit.  I haven't made it part of EVERY day, I'm just glad I've been able to do it a few times already.  My body definitely feels the pain afterwards.  But I know the more I do it, the better I'll feel - and the easier it will get.  It's the third week of January so my hardcore regimen has started to slack.  The first couple of weeks I was writing everything I ate down in a notebook and app, and logging all my workouts.  I haven't done that in a few days.  :(  Oh well...
I took on a new coaching client.  She is 10 years old and just started out in the business.  It's nice to be able to have a coaching session or tape an audition here from home when Ceasar watches the babies upstairs.  I just wish I had my own office.  Kitchen appointments don't feel as professional.  :(  But I'm hoping whenever I get back to casting full time, I'll have a separate office to handle coaching, auditions,  consulting sessions, etc...

Wednesday, January 02, 2013

Day One

Well, actually, it's Day two.  Day two of the new year, and day two of my new diet and fitness overhaul.  Day one of working out though.  Thanks to a very bad stomach ache the first of the year, I followed my healthy eating diet, but I couldn't workout until today.  So Day one of back on the saddle.
What's weird was, I've lost 100 pounds before.  I did it once, I can do it again, right??  It's not like I'm trying to lose the whole 100 again, but I'm trying to get my butt back into shape.  I'm not even shooting for my skinniest.  Just my happy weight.  To go with my happy date.  :)  We finally set a date to get married - September 7, 2013.  So I have 8 months to drop pounds.  Eight months to get back into fighting weight.  Ugh.
The thing is, it's like I forgot HOW I did it!  It WAS many years ago...and I was so much younger.  My metabolism was way faster...yadda yadda yadda...  I know I can do it again.  I just have to remember what worked.
If I can recall, I remember calling it the "Common Sense Diet".  I didn't eat junk food, fried food, fast food.  I drank tons of water, I ate smaller portions, more fruits and veggies.  I started walking, then jogging, then running.  Then I remember I plateaued.  I was stuck on those last 20 pounds.  Only really needing to lose 10 of those, but kind of in a crazed diet mind-frame, I went for the 20.  That's when I turned low-carb and kicked up the workouts.  Ah, victory!  I was my goal weight for maybe 5 minutes. Ok, Maybe a weekend.  Then I slowly landed back at my "happy weight" where I stayed for the most part.
The treadmill is turned on and ready to go.  I started walking on it today.  Trying to squeeze in 10 minutes here, 15 minutes there, trying to add it all up.  It's hard to take care of two babies and our home, pay bills, go grocery shopping and find 10-15 min here and there to jump on the treadmill, when jumping in the shower is a daily challenge!  But I will do it!  Whether that means that my shower has to  now be moved to the evening so I can have my days free to workout...I will do it.
So day one of this journey.
I don't intend this to turn into a weight loss and diet blog - or even a wedding planning blog, but this is what's happening in my life in 2013.  So, yeah.  And a First birthday in March.  And a Second birthday in August.  And hopefully a 2 morning a week pre-pre-pre school in the fall for the babies....  A lot going on.  :)
But first, Day one.  Two.  Whatever.