Lydia's Journey BEYOND Hollywood

I wonder how long I can use the excuse "I JUST had a baby" to explain why I'm not back to skinny. Who am I kidding - I've never been "skinny". Lol Ivy will be 5 months in a couple of weeks, I guess I should get off my butt already and kick things into gear. But my pre-pregnancy weight was more than I would like it to be - so simply going back to what I was before I had her is not enough. I want myself back to my best weight. Hmm..I AM older...maybe that's asking too much of myself. I don't need to be my "smallest" - but smaller than what I am now would be nice. Hell, 20 pounds would be great - but still not enough. Ahhh...memories. :) Motivation? It's just so much harder to find any time to workout with two babies. Maybe that's just an excuse. I need to make time, right? If you want something, you can never get it by sitting back and daydreaming about it. You have to MAKE IT HAPPEN. That's how I'...

I've been checking out agencies for Nic and Ivy - just out of curiosity mostly. I figured I can't really take off for auditions for myself - but I can take them! And there is one trend I'm noticing with Texas agents that I just don't get. What's with charging talent to be on the agent's website???? I don't understand that concept. The agent represents the actor - so wouldn't it be in the best interest for the agent to showcase their talent on their company website? Maybe someone can enlighten me, but in my opinion, the agent's job is to help find work so they can collect their percentage (- sometimes up to 20% if the actor is non-union!) by submitting them for projects and hopefully even pitching them to casting. They don't get paid unless the actor does, right? So why charge the actor to be on their own company site? If the purpose of the agent's website is to raise the profile of their actors and make it easy for casting to see who t...

I'm torn. I'm debating if this is the right time for me to get back into the swing of things and audition again. I have auditions for two plays next week, if I choose so. They would be opening in September and December. This would be my first play back since having the babies. I remember the last play I did, I didn't quite feel ready for it. And I feel like my performance suffered because of it. And now, I'm torn if I should out myself back there again. Mainly because Ivy and Nic are still so little. And rehearsals would most likely be from 7-10 most evenings, so that means I would be with the babies until Ceasar gets home, spend maybe an hour with him, and then take off to rehearsal for a few hours. By the time I would get home, the babies would be asleep and I would do the whole thing over again the next day. I'm scared. I'm not sure why. On one hand, its a huge commitment. Many nights of rehearsal, many hours sacrificed away from home. On the ot...